Remember those t-shirts and bumper stickers? That’s how I feel lately.

I have felt for months that when we get our referral I will be at peace. Everyone was a naysayer - they say the wait until travel is the hardest part. I know it hasn’t been long yet but I am at peace, I don’t feel burdened by the wait. I am not anxious or worried. None of those things you normal people feel. I am just glad to know my daughter. Know who she is, where she is, what her name is, what her deep beautiful eyes look like. I could get lost in those eyes, so full of wonder.

As high-strung as I have felt in the last few months, this is a huge relief.

This week I have a lot of loose ends to tie up. We are leaving for vacation next week. I have been in denial about this very thing. I can’t believe we will be leaving in a few days. I have TONS left to do - I have three Asian quilt swaps to *start* and *finish* before we can leave. I have to create my Dad’s father’s day gift (a video slide show of his life as dad - no small undertaking considering all the pics have to be scanned and our scanner is so horrible). I have a friend coming over tomorrow. Oh and there is that pesky business of caring for the kids to fit in in my spare time My daily special summer events have gone by the wayside during this last week, in a big way. I need to get back on track.

So maybe I’m not normal but I have an incredible sense of peace. Things are as they should be. Finally.

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